harii inii maunya kan ke skolah guna tuk menyelesaikan maya..tetapi ternyataa..waktu nyampe sekolah..dah ujan2 pula.. trus eh kan lagi nungguin si nita..malah ktemu ama herman, harry, andre, ama bulet heiuehieuhe..yah udah malah ngobrol..mereka pda kelar exammm hohoho kasiannnn deey.. yah udah..trus abis mereka pulang..ktemu ama monic...yah udah ngobrol ama monicc...ehhh trus gak lama si kecil datenggggg yah udehhh..saya maem babi kecap nya tanteee hohoho enak juga ternyataaaa slurppppppppp

trussssss abis gituh kan rencana mo bikin asign nehhh hayahhh ternyata si kecil minta jalan2 cobaaa ke cityyyyy yah jelas ajah langsung saya tolakkkkkkk heiuheiueh gak tau apa udah jauh gituh..mana dah sore waktu ituh dah jam 3 kan gak lucu nyampe2 pulang lagehh..

akhirnya kita berkeputusan tuk ke chadstone.. nah di chads..beli sandalll hoho tuk summer ..biar kaki gak capekk pake sandal hak tinggi mulu..warna putih lagi..padahal sandal putih sudah 3 ama ini bkl 4 dehh duhh gak tau deh..kapan make nya..hiks abis gini gak belanja lagi deh..
oh iyeh..ituh baju yg kekecilan dah ditukerr huieuheiuehei senangnya hati..

skarang lagi dengerin lagu2 christmasss kan abis gini maoo natall..tadi ajah di myer dah di mana2 pohon natallll gilee..satu pojokan ada 3 pohon sendiri..kira2 kl dibawa pulang satu mereka kerasa gak ye? abisnya tuh bener2 pemborosannnnn hayahhhh


trus skarang jg lagi download-in lagu2nya kenny g ohh tidakk bener2 pengen maen biola nyaaa enakkk bgtt bgt hihihih trus tak lupa juga saya dl lagu vanessa maee..heihuie mulai tadi dah diputer2 terosss tetep ajah gak mengerti bagaimana caranya ituh jari2 dia bgituh trampilllllllllll??????????? cepet banget ituh teh maennyaaaa gak tau gmn..magic tuh cewe...bener2 bikin jatoh cintaaaa huiauhaiuah
kapan yah bisa maen kaya diaa.. hihihihi di mimpi pun kayanya susyahh hoehieieie..
yah sudah..saya mengantuk..tanda harus bobok.
gut nitee...
god bless ur nite and my nite...

its raining..
and i never ever ever ever..like raining dayz.. fiuuuh anyweiiii hari ini mo bikin maya..tapi gara2 komputer rumah,...yah u knowww its a bit slowww jadi gak tahan nungguinnya..yah udah i decided tomorrow mo ke skolah bikin..kelar gak yah by friday? moga2 kelaaarrr deeee

hari inii seharian perutku gak enak..why yah..apa maag? abisnya kerasa very2 fulllll dari pagi.. kayak mo muntah

ohayooo heihue *dah gak pagi seh benernya* HOammmmm semalem bobok jam 3 lebih bok..trus tadi bangun jam 11 lebih hoehoehoe malunya .. trus kan hari ini mao kumpulin assignmentt...ehhh tadi trus si enny masuk kamar nanya mo ke sekolah ngga? soalnya klo mau kan bisa barengan gito.. nah karena saya belom mandi dan masih enjoy di ranjang bersama bantal2 ama selimuttt heiuehie akhirnya dia dengan bae hatinya nawarin mau ngumpulin assignment sayaa huihiauhaiuh wooahhh gak nolakkk senangnyaaaaaa hihihihihihihi..:D

yup trus bangunn..ada telp dr emak..emak mo pinjem buku di caulfield.. then mau bantuin dia bikin photoshop ma dreamweaver hohohoho saya sendiri tidak mampuuu benernya..saking yah ada yang saya bisaa hayah moga2 dia gak nanya yang aneh2 heiuhie kl gak kesian dah dateng jaoh2 dr city trus juntrung2nya aku gak bisa bikinnyaa hohohoho *matenk*

skarang lage dandann hihihi biar cantik..ummm laper euy mao maem apa yahh..anyone interest having lunch with me? heoheoheohe
oh yah tadi malem gak tau kesamber apaan pengen denger lagunya si dini ttuh yang seputih hatii ehhh trus gak tau knapa juga..jadi sedihhhh hatinyaaa haiuhaiau wah gak bae heiuh yah sudah..akhirnya dibawa bobokk..sebelom bobok berdoa duluuu supaya gak kebawa2 mimpi heiuheie.. berdoa supaya cepetan lulus..karena saya merasa kok makin mualesss bgitoooo

fiuh yah udah deh..mo siap2 kayanya abis gini ke sekolah ktemu emakk and hopefully dia belom makan jadi kan bisa maem barenggg hohohohoh asek
God bless your day! n my day... <-- wakakak icon ini namanya alice loh..baruu ajah tauuu hieuhee.. *tersanjung* hihihihi

wuih.. barusan dinner cheese cake... nyam2 bangetttttt bikinan emak heiuehieu the best dah emang..clurpppp..cuman tadi abis makan krasa bersalah seh..abisnya ituh chesse bener2 cheesyy man heiheiue.. *berdoa supaya tidak bertambah bulettt*.. udahh.

yup..besok mo ke skolah kumpulin asisgnment... ituh bakalan jadi assignment terakhir sayaa..heiuehe..hopefully in my whole lifeee ^_^

hum tadi ke church..tadi khotbahnya sih bener2 bagusss...sempet pengen nangiss..abisnya tuh si Peter Miso..lg ngomongin orang macem apa yang TUhan mau pake..dan salah satunya orang yang broken.. as u knowwww kata2 'broken' ituh bener2 catching bgt ama telinga dan hatiikuuuuuuuuww heiuhe.. tapi emank bener sih..lewat semua brokennes ituh aku makin kuat, makin deeply in love with him.. my only lover..

tadi abis church..u knoww as usuall ada anak2 fa..hayah..gara2 si herman bulet ama melani singer..jadi ada herman ama hari ikutan ke city..dan kayanya mereka never tired bullying meeeee oh tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk ..... masa seminggu sekali di fa gak cukup yah? heoheoheo but thats fine.. mereka cheer up my day kok.. God has given them with 'special' skills hieuheie..thats why they are placed on 'special' place in my heart..hohohohohoh meskipun sekali2 pengen *jitak* merekaa satu persatuu heheh

trussss makannnn ama emak hohoho..makan di desert house.. thenn ke myer beli baju..tapi kayanya salah size *kekecilan * heoheoheoheo sebenernya ini hal yang memalukan..karna berarti saya makin buletttt ohhhh noooooooo heiuheiu namun emank ituh size keciiiiiiiiiiil bgtt...cukup sih..tapi make nya kudu tahan napas..otherwise perutnya nongol wuakakakkakakak *malunyaaa ~~~~~* hihihihihihih *sssuuuttt....suuuttt... *

yah thats all for today.. God bless you..God bless me too..

teruntukmu hatiku....
inginku bersuara
inginku tumpahkan smua isi hatiku
ceritakan apa yg kujalani
tentang di masa sebelum aku mengenalmu

rangkaian cerita
sebukit kisah
suatu perjalanan yg penuh tawa dan air mata
suara tanda tanya.. akan keraguan
semua yang terlintas

impianku
khayalanku
tentang dirimu


keluhku
kesahku
mungkinkah dengan hadirmu
kan menjawab semua tanyaku?

kemaren..nani sms aku..bilank klo aku jangan ganggu hubungan dia ama willy soalnya dia baca emel yang waktu bulan sept ituh..
pertama aku diem..apapun seng dee bilank i just accept all semua tak telan semua tak terima..ehhh jam 3 an pagi..dia sms lagi..kayanya sakit hatinya belom ilank..dia masih ngomel2 lagi..bilank katanya apa bukan dosa namanya kalo gangguin hubungan orang? oh my GOD.. bener2 deh ituh udah out of my kesabarann..akhirnya aku bilank.. kalo aku niat ngancurin hubungan dia..sebenarnya aku terusin ajah waktu willy bimbang..tapi karna aku gak mau ganggu hub dia..makanya aku langsung stop semuanya... trus aku suruh dia mikir..and then she said.. dia dah baca emelku dan dia percaya..semua yg barusan dia ngomong ituh..semua cuman curhat..jangan dimasukin ke hati..WHATTT???? hayah..bener2 deh bikin aku gak bisa bb semaleman..bener2 di satu sisi gak enak ngerasa bersalah..tapi sebel bgt soalnya dia salah paham ama aku.. gak mau donk disalahin atas sesuatu yg gak pernah aku bikin bt bgttttttttttttttttttttttt
i know how hurt she is...tapi yang bermasalah ituh cowonyaaaaa.. knapah yang disalahin akuuuuu yailah..kambing hitam deh bener2..seumur2 gak pernah diginiiin ama orangg..
an then she ask me to promise her not to contact her bf againn.. have to lose him as my best friend..
bener2 gak trima..rasanya bener2 childishhh bgt masa gara ituh aku gak boleh kontak sama sekali..even only chatting and emel.. kita hidup di dunia mbakkkkkk !!! dunia bukan milik lu berduaaa..
sebel banget deh.. maksud aku.. ini kan hak tiap orang donk..mau temenan ama sapa ajah.. gak bisa ngelarang gini.. kata dia willy juga dah janji ama dia kl gak bakal kontak aku lagi..
yah syudah..jelek banget gituh gut bye nya..padahal aku gak pernah berpikir kl endingnya ky gene..bener2 childishhhhh bgt bgt bgt..sebel

today i found nice article..melting my heart cuz this article was just identical with what i've feltt many million times since im in melb...


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Have you ever had one of those encounters or experiences that you knew you would remember for as long as you live? Imagine yourself in desolution and suddenly, your knight in shinning armour just stood in front of you and you simply melted? He held out his hands, ready to hold you as you run into his embrace....no matter how hurt you are or how much pain you are going through....he has a way of easing them? Too good to be true? Think again...


I met my knight in Australia. I knew him all along but we didn't really have a very close relationship because I was busy...busy chasing after things that were never meant to be. He's my best friend...someone who really stood by me no matter how (most of the time) I refuse to answer his calls. He listened patiently to all my complains as I go through my days. He waited quietly for me to talk to him even if it's only 10 minutes. He was the first one to offer me a warm and cozy embrace when I so needed one. He was always there for me when I needed a friend. He laughed when I laugh and cried when I cry. He took the blame for all my wrong doings without asking for anything in return. When I say, "I'm sorry", he'd say, "It's ok, I love you."


I knew that he fell in love with me the first time he saw me. It was love at first sight. Although I didn't reciprocate, he carried on watching over me and comforted me like any good friend would. He is yearning for the day I would be less busy. Whenever he tried to talk, I gave him a time frame..."I have only 5 minutes for you...make it quick", I said. He watched on as I turned my back to walk away, back into my busy schedule. Yet, he never gave up on me. He waited and waited and waited...

That day was my most miserable day. I was crying because it hurt so much. The pain of giving up something I treasured so much. I knew I shouldn't but I was rebellious. I chose to carry on even when no one was on my side. I sat by my bed and cried my heart out while he sat beside me....watching...saying nothing. I told him I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted to go home. He said it's not the time yet. I felt so lonely deep inside me. I had no one. I felt so rejected, so unwanted. All of a sudden, my world just collapsed. I was numbed from all the crying. At that instant, I heard his gentle voice say, "I want you. I promised you that I will never leave you, I will never forsake you. You have read my love letters so many times. I don't break my promises." It was then that I realised what I've been missing out. He took me as I am, not for what I can offer. He saw my brokenness and quietly picked up the pieces.

In his gentleness, he took my hands and walked me down memory lane. He said, "Remember the time you dreamed of me?" I nodded. Of course I remembered that dream. It was lovely...although I couldn't remember a single word that was said in that dream, I remembered the feeling. It was so calm, so lovely, so peaceful, so warm. He said that I don't have to remember what was mentioned in that dream, I only need to remeber the feeling. I did and I smiled for the first time after so many nights of crying. The feeling of loneliness and rejection left.

I took out my keyboard and started singing him a love song. A song specially dedicated to him. I sang until I was totally lost in his love...so immersed in his presence. I never want to get out. It was hard initially, but I kept trying and I made it. He loved it. From then on, music became my life. Whenever I'm down, he would come to me with a song.

I remember a phrase that say "Wherever you go, God is already there". How true? Although that was just a short encounter with Jesus, it changed my life forever. I was never the same anymore. I yearn for more of his love that came so unconditionally. Then I heard him say, "Freely you have received, freely give."
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